Happy 1st Birthday to me
One year since I started living as my authentic self and completed my deedpoll for name change. A lot has changed in this last year, not just physically but mentally also. The surgery and hormone treatment have been amazing and seeing the ongoing changes to my body to become the male I have always been inside is amazing. For the first time in my life I feel at peace within. Ok that may seem strange to some of you, or maybe not, but i knew I was not a girl at the age of 8 so it's taken a while to get to where I am. So what stopped me I hear you ask. Well apart from the negativity from adults around me when I told them , I began to believe what they said and the internal battles and transphobia began. Yes I was transphobic, not to others but when I thought about myself I had feelings of disgust and hate because I had been taught I was wrong for feeling this way. It took a lot of processing and feeling in the right place mentally to take that leap of faith and be who I have always be...