7 Days

It's actually 6 days until I head to London for two things. The first appointment is for the Gender Hormone Clinic, It has been agreed they will provide Testosterone , shared care with GP, he just has to sign the forms, please keep all crossed for me. That in itself is a huge thing, but in CHé form I don't just have one appointment but two.

The second is surgery, yes the day is nearly here for Top Surgery , Tuesday 12th to be exact, maybe a second birthday is looming 🫂

If you want to I know I'm having double incision, also fat at the side (dog ears) removed at same time.

So why am I telling you this.

Well I have had the unexpected emotional flurry that has hit me this week. I have cried, cried more than I think I have ever cried. No it is not out of sadness as I initially thought. I thought I only cried out of sadness but wasn't feeling sad but emotional, the emotions of euphoria, a sense of relief, happiness and finally I am going to be me.

Many people have no idea what it's like to be born into a body that doesn't fit how they feel. Let me tell you it's hard, 51 years it's taken me to accept and understand myself. 51 years of being told I'm a woman, I can't change, don't be stupid. Well that's bollocks, I am not the woman I was assigned at birth I am CHé and this person is going to be free to be me.

So if I cry around you over the next few weeks or days, it's most likely not out of upset , but for the emotions explained above. Euphoria is a beautiful thing.

My journey of physical acceptance is also having a great impact on my emotional and spiritual acceptance and growth. We are always learning in our lives . My message to you is allow yourselves to grow in whatever way you wish and need to manifest, however small it may seem.

Take care all and see you on the other side of surgery, or maybe the night before .