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Spring has sprung, time for new beginnings.  
Not sure what the universe has in store for me right now with things that have happened these past few weeks, March has not felt kind in the main. But I remain optimistic for what is coming and trust the process. It is hard to do right now, but I do trust the universe for directions and guidance to help me find my path. 

March hasn't been all bad , attending Alex session in person was an amazing experience. Meeting him and Mel in the flesh was wholesome, without the session that followed. I would attend more if he was not in Australia 🤷‍♂️

Meeting a person who is spiritually aligned with me has been beautiful, we met randomly and appear on the same spiritual path , supporting each other on our own quests , wherever they may take us.

March has been a reminder of true friendship, and for those I am truly grateful, I love each and everyone of you.

The house sale fell through, however I believe it's for the greater good and trust the process. I have delayed moving to the flat I fell in love with, but maybe it is not where I'm meant to end up. Time will tell.

Maybe just maybe travel is on the cards, but I'm leaving that to those who hold me , those guides I am re connecting with in my journey to living as CHé.

Healing has been amazing, scaring and tattoos have healed and continue to heal well. I have lots to celebrate, however some challenges are going to take some time to process and overcome fully 

Part of the process is healing younger CHé , and I believe this is why some things, I won't discuss, have happend.

There is so much to this world than our physical form, if we just allow ourselves to be and connect with everything we see, sense and feel.

Love and Light to each and every one of you xx

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